He's Eleven

My oldest son just turned 11 years old yesterday. He has grown into such a fine young man. I am such a proud momma, he helps me in so many ways. We had big plans for this weekend and then our plans all changed. My husband got hurt on saturday morning and sprang his ankle real bad. So he has been house bound and crippled all weekend. We had to get him some crutches to get around on. So we ended up spending the weekend home and relaxing. I am so sorry Elisha that things didn't work out like we planned but I am so proud of you for being so good about it.

NEWS!!!!

We have officially rented us a house in Oregon. We have the lease agreement sent by fax and the check is going in the mail. I am really excited, this makes things feel a little more real to me. We still haven't heard anything on the house here in Oklahoma yet, we were supposed to hear something today. But so far I have had no call. We are really praying that things will close soon and no more delays. But we did decide to go ahead with the move for now. So Lord willing we will be on our way in June sometime. I am just so happy to have a house to move straight into. The pictures look awesome and we had some people go have a look ( thanks Dennis and Trina ). They both gave it a thumbs up, so this means it is a keeper.

Baby Bands......

I woke up early this morning to go to town and get the stuff to make me some new baby bands. I had asked a sister that I know to help me, so I picked her up and off to Joanne Fabrics we went. We found some of the cutest baby blanket stuff, so I couldn't resist and purchased the stuff to make this baby 3 new blankets. When we were done we went and ate some Mexican food and then to another fabric store and of course Sonic for happy hour. Then off to her house to get the bands done. We made 11 new baby bands and sewed two blankets. Thanks to her daughter coming over and helping. I will go tomorrow to finish sewing the velcro on the bands and finish the other blankets. This has really been a fun thing to do. I am so excited to have all of these things done. I will take some pictures tomorrow if we get them finished.

On another note, Samuel was much better today. I think he is just testing me to see how much he can get away with. I plan on showing him who is the boss. Hopefully I can stick to it, but sometimes the things he says and does is just way to cute coming out of his little mouth.

What A Morning!!!!

This morning has been a crazy one for me. How do I start, Oh ya.. the ants that are infesting my house. My husband woke me up and told me that we had ants all over the kitchen floor. By the way it was to early to start cleaning for me, but I can't stand those little things. So I pop out of bed wake the kids up to help. They start moving everything off the tile so I can sweep the ants up and give it another good cleaning. After I got done cleaning the floor and picking a few things I looked up to see what time it was. It was 7:00 a.m. and I must admit I don't usually get around till around 8:00. So those pesty little things were gone for now. Then I decided I would make a phone call and chat for awhile. That went very well, thanks Sylvia for always being there to chat with.

Then my day really started, my three year old (Samuel who I love dearly) decided to become a little terror. Lets just say I said way to much about someone else's kids that I am being paid back. For starters he found some lotion and smeared it all over Elisha's bed and window. So we clean that up and of course had the talk with him. I decided that I was going to take a shower and get cleaned up, so off to the bathroom I went to find Samuel in the bathroom with no pants on and toilet paper everywhere. As soon as he saw me the apologies started coming out of his mouth. "I sorry mommy".... So now its time to clean this mess up and crack down on him. So of course the kids start cleaning his mess and I spank his little bottom and told him that was a no no. I must admit this is becoming a daily experience with him that I am getting sick of. He loves to plunge the toilet also, wet toilet paper in the toilet he just potted in. And then throw it around the bathroom. My other two kids never got into anything. So as the morning has gone on this little man has been hitting, pulling his sisters hair, and throwing fits. By the way I don't do well this kind of attitude in my house. Then all the sudden the house got quite, Oh no that can't be a good sign. So off to my room I go to find my three year old in my bathroom spraying my shout all over the place. That was it the child was going to bed before momma pulled her hair out. And by the way I had plans of going to town this morning. But they are on hold while the little one takes his much needed nap. I just pray that I can win this fight with him, he is usually such a good boy, but every since he turned three one month ago he has kept me on my toes. I love you Samuel so much I just want you to know how to mind and stay out of things.

The house is quite, Samuel is asleep and I have some much needed time to myself.

Bad Habit.... Funny Situation

I have noticed lately that I have been grinding my teeth. The problem with this is, that it gives me a headache and is hard on my teeth. I have never done this before and my jaw is aching. I have to stop and pay attention to what I am doing and even at that it is still hard not to do. What a annoying habit to have. How this has started I have no idea I just figured it out lately.

This morning as we was laying in bed we could here Samuel in his room yelling at the kids. Yes my three year old is very bossy. So Lee decided that he needed to go and take care of him and stop his yelling. As he went in his room he saw Samuel still in his crib ( yes he is still in the crib it keeps him from waking up and roaming the house). So Lee asked him what his problem was and he told his daddy that there was dinosaurs everywhere and they would get him if he got out. But the problem was he didn't want the kids to leave his room. So when they would walk out he would go ballistic on them. So daddy reassured him that there were no dinosaurs to worry about. This gave us a good chuckle this morning the things that he comes up with sometimes just amuses us.

Kicking like crazy....

I have so enjoyed the last three weeks of being pregnant. I am feeling like my old self and the baby is a very active little guy. I am almost 22 weeks and this baby kicks hard enough that I can see it and feel it on the outside. This might not be a big thing for most but when you are over weight to start out with they say sometimes you won't feel it as easy in the beginning. I started feeling the butterflies about 15 weeks and soon after I could feel movement. Now it just moves all the time and Lee can even feel him going crazy. I love to lay and just enjoy the movements, kicks and jabs. I am sure in another month or two I might be wishing it would settle down as it gets in my ribs. But for now I will just savor every moment.

On another note I decided to finish a quilt I started a long time ago. I am hoping to get this done, then start making a few things for the baby. I am really having a hard time not shopping for this little one. I want to go buy new onesies, gowns, socks, and all the necessities you need in the beginning. I am not one who is good about saving things, I usually will find someone who needs my things as I get done. Since usually after having a baby, I vow that thats the last one. I believe I have said that twice now. Oopps here I go again, it is so true that you forget or just go insane and do it again. All of my kids have been planned so I can't say they ever were a oops baby. Sometimes it just took longer than what we would of liked. I don't mean to bore anyone with my pregnancy I just want to someday look back and remember the things that meant so much to me.

I Want to.. I Want tooo....

One of my deepest desires is to be able to breast feed this little baby that I am carrying. I have tried with the others and have never been very successful. When Elisha was little I only tried for a day or so then I got scared when he lost some weight so I put him on the bottle. I was a new mom who had just lost a child 10 months before and couldn't bear the thought of doing anything wrong. When I had Stormie I had learned so much more information so I stuck it out for awhile. But I soon got breast fever and was really sick and still young and scared that I would make her sick. So she went to the bottle after a few months. When I was pregnant with Samuel I was so determined that I just knew I was going to do so much better, since I was older and more wiser. I was able to nurse him for only three months and the cracking and bleeding never eased up it just keep getting worse. So I would try to pump so at least he would get the good milk. Then one day I looked at the bottle and it was filled with pink milk. This really bothered me that I was feeding my son my blood in his milk. So I stopped and went to formula again. But I am determined to try this again. Something deep inside me wants to do this so bad. Sometimes I think I will keep having babies until I can accomplish breast feeding. Sounds crazy I know, but I can't help but want to. I do all the reading I can find on ways to help me out. I get so jealous of those women who have no difficulties but for me it has always been a trial. And I know that I am not the only women who has been challenged with this. So for those of you who understand I am sorry and for those who don't count your blessings. So I pray that this baby will know how to latch on right and be a wonderful breast feeding baby.

I am reading different things on how to prepare early so maybe this will all help. Sorry to bore you all but it is something I really would like to do.

Mornings

I must say that I am a morning person. I love how in the mornings when my little man comes to me to cuddle. How he holds my face and tells me that he loves me. How his sweet little face can put a smile all over my face. I feel sad at times when I think of how when my older kids were young and I didn't enjoy each stage of there life as much as I have with Samuel. I was always so busy with life. Now all I want to do is savor each moment of my kids. I catch myself paying more attention to all the details of my pregnancy. Enjoying the moments of little movements the baby makes, holding Samuel when ever he asks. Savoring the moments is what is important right now.

EVENTUALLY IT WILL HAPPEN!

We are still waiting to hear when our closing will be. The people buying our house ran into a few glitches. So we are being patient and trying to work with them. We have just decided it wasn't for us to move this month. So we are hoping for next month. Things are still going slowly, we actually decided to do some more packing today and the house is getting cleaned out except for furniture, kitchen necessities, and a suit case of clothes for each of us. The closets are on the verge of being empty. And all those little nuk and cranies are being cleaned out. We are really praying about a home to move into out there. We are so torn on the idea of renting or buying. Our emotions keep going back and forth on which route we should take. We know that God has a plan and I just hope that we make the right decision. Sometimes we are bad about just doing. Actually this is the longest it has taken for us to do anything. Usually we have a idea and just react on it, but this move has been in the Lords hand the whole time.

I am know almost 21 weeks and I feel so good. My energy has returned, and I feel like my old self. The baby is moving and kicking all the time, and this is such a wonderful feeling. I am one of those who love to be pregnant but the delivery is something I could do with out. But its something that is a must to get the baby here. I keep praying that things will be different this time, but I always say that. I guess every birth has been different but always a difficult process for me. Elisha was my easiest but I had had a baby just 10 months before and I think my body was still in that mode. I will just keep praying for the best and keep enjoying my pregnancy through this move and transition in our lives.

I know some of you are wondering if this move will ever happen. I am here to say eventually it will happen....

Another Day

This is a song that my husband wrote, so here he is singing it for us. I think he did a wonderful job.

Early Mothers Day for me.......

I decided that I was going to get my hair all natural. So I went to my cousin and had it turned back to normal, no more crazy hair at least for now. Lee was very pleased with the outcome. I must admit I like it also. So here is a picture of me with just plain brown hair. No two tons or high lights for now.



This last weekend my cousin and his wife came down for the night and the next morning we went shopping for her birthday present. In our little adventure she was wanting a purse, by the way this is so up my alley. So off to the mall shopping for purses. My wonderful husband likes to buy me things so he bought me some perfume called summer cocktail by Givenchy and it smells devine. Then he went ahead and let me buy a new purse and wallet. I so love it, It is very neutral and goes with so much. Thanks honey for spoiling me.

TERRIBLE THREES!!!

My sweet little angel has turned over night to a little monster at times. All of the sudden he has decided to test me and see who will get the last word. The last few times that I have took him to wal-mart has been a utter disaster. No joke, you no those kids who are screaming at the top of there lungs throwing there bodies all over the place. Ya thats us, I am the mom who wants to pull her hair out, crawl under something and hide. The only thing that will half way calm him down is when I call daddy to talk to him. Then he shuts up for a little while. Three weeks ago I would of took him to town over all my kids but now I can't stand the thought of even going. Believe me he doesn't get away with the fits he gets in plenty of trouble. I am not one who likes to spank in public because so many people thinks it is abuse, but I believe it is necessary at times or else you are raising the next menace to society. Samuel has decided that when he has pushed us to far to ask us if we want him to kiss us to see if we will forget the moment of fit throwing before. He is so adorable but the fits are too much for me to handle. I so hope we can get past this before the new baby comes. My boys seem to have a bit of a temper that I am learning to control. I want them to be sweet men who can control there tempers and keep them in tact. I have heard that Lee had the same problem as a kid but I must say his parents did something right he is patient with me and with the men who work for him. He also told me once that seeing all the fighting at church in his youth taught him so much. He could see were it didn't fix the problems. I just pray that my boys grow up to as good as there dad.